Further, Farther. the Final Cut

"let me let you go.. I've already lost you that day you've made your decision. From here on, it's pointless to keep holding on to something that's never really mine to begin with. It's a choice you did make, not mine. All that's left for me to do is bear everything and somehow find a way to bring myself back to the right direction. Don't be selfish, you can't have everything. Let go of me please? Slowly i'll start to pick up the broken pieces of me. I'll move on and soon see a new reason to smile. A new reason to wake up each day. A new reason to breathe. A whole new reason to live my life. Don't just walk away again without saying goodbye in hopes that someday when you need to again visit my themepark you'll still be welcomed. Don't feel sorry and guilty for everything, your just making me all the more say what a pity i am. I've already gave all that i've got. In the end, it was still not enough. It was already enough reason that you still chose to go back to him. You need not to explain anything anymore, besides you don't have the obligation to. Let me feel all these pain. Let these tears fall from my weary eyes. One day these pain and tears would be the same reason why i'd gladly look back at my past and smile without regrets. "These patterns of loneliness, make me believe again. " Don't you ever be back just to be gone once more. Never say i never trusted you, 'coz I did trusted my life to you! It was you who never did yours to me. As I hear more and more of your words, the more I get drowned with lies. The more it makes me wonder if there was any truth that happened all along. Before you try to be honest with me, for once at least be honest to yourself. Maybe if fate allows it, we'll find ourselves in the comfort of each other. Just maybe, we'll have our chance sometime in the future. But as of this time, as we move further, farther away from each other's grasp, let's carry on in this reality. Let's wake up from that dream we've both been drawn to..and just continue living on the way we used to be..."

...written February 19, 2007, 1:43 AM


there it is.. nasabi ko na ata lahat ng kelangan ko sabihin jan, it took me this long to finally have the courage to tell you everything.

this blog started because of you, you know that all of these were for you,, and now there's no point in still continuing this..

so, there it is.. see yah! =)